don't worry about the future...

welcome back.

2008-08-17T11:14:00.000-07:00

welcome home, my friend.

its been a long long time since i've written, and i'm feeling quite trite lately,
but looking back at this summer,
it has been a lovely one.

one of the best ever, perhaps.

i've been fortunate enough to:

work forty hours, or more, a week
visit a friend
go to acorn buddy camp
spend time with old friends
go the beach
go camping
go to my cottage
and remain very very satisfied with my life.

and now, its the school year, and i am ready to make some changes, and carry them through. and start new classes, and make something of myself.

3101 will be great.

whoa, its june!

2008-06-12T21:13:00.000-07:00

now, i simply can't believe its already june 12. i swear just yesterday was june 1st.

this is great, though.

next week is the first week of full time work and the full crew, and i am going to miss spending a full 6 hours a day with hunter and zack. they're pretty much quality.

also next week is a lovely weekend with three great friends, and some fishing. sure to be a good time.

i am no longer going to worry about the following things: money, joshua chovaz, and the future. good.

dear friend: come home

2008-05-29T15:51:00.000-07:00

you know its officially summer time when your ears turn a gorgeous golden brown and then begin to peel. its not officially summer on my ears, but i think its safe to say that it is near.

work is great, and with a lot of recent effort, i believe my male friend count has gone from a mere 1 to about 7 in the last couple of months or so. i'm quite pleased.

i'm looking forward to the 4th of july; i always look forward to it, as if something extra great or spectacular might happen, and while nothing ever does, its still always a great day. this year i'll be at my cottage enjoying my family in great northern michigan. i want sparklers at my wedding.

safe travels.

2008-05-22T01:36:00.000-07:00

wow, may twenty-something already?

that seems quick but in the broad scheme of things, summer is dragging.

let's give 'em something to talk about

2008-05-01T14:45:00.000-07:00

some things that are spectacular, and that have already occurred in summa '08:

-final grades being much, much higher than what blackboard stated (hooray!)
-substitute teaching
-getting payed money
-seeing the people i love
-talking to people that live far away
-discovering how truly wonderful ella fitzgerald is
-laughing all day long at work (inevitable when working with zach and hunter)
-feeling good about myself
-having lovely facebook chats at 1am with the one and only laina rosema about messed-up cats and plans that involve lots and lots of catnip!
-singing oldies in the car with scott and amy driving up and down the east beltline

...and its only been a week

shy that way.

2008-04-29T22:44:00.000-07:00

this summer will be great in more ways than one.

i am sure of it.

one to four months.

2008-04-18T20:04:00.000-07:00

"Sing the wondrous love of Jesus,
Sing His mercy and His grace.
In the mansions bright and blessèd
He’ll prepare for us a place."

"Go rest high on that mountain
Son, your work on earth is done
Go to heaven a shoutin'
Love for the Father and Son."

i have no great comforting words for those in my life that need it, and others who need comfort on lesser scales aren't getting any either, because, in my mind right now, their problems are so minuscule and petty; it makes me want to throw up. which, whatever. i'm a bitch. fine.

lung cancer. liver cancer. stage four. four months maximum. one month minimum. no treatment. care facility? home? whats next?

"May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
So what would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance."

escape isn't an option, but if i could jump ahead to september, i sure would.

the heart of life is good.

2008-04-15T14:58:00.001-07:00

i'm ready for summer 08. and fall 08.

lets go.

elvis isn't dead.

2008-03-23T12:48:00.000-07:00

[me either.]

[i am such a deb.]

when i look at the stars.

2008-03-15T11:37:00.000-07:00

i have come to realize over the last couple of weeks how incredibly boring my life currently is. and i have come to realize how unhappy i am, and self-conscious, and mean, and nit-picky, and girlly... so i am going to work on that.

i need it to be summer. i need a fresh start. i need to move out of this room, and out of this building, and off of this campus for a little while. go back to my roots, one might say. i need some intellegent conversation. i need to put away some old habits, old fellows, and even some new habits and new fellows, perhaps.

i still think ywam is for me. i still think its a good idea. i wish i still thought i was strong enough to do it.

i am currently: overcast with a chance of rain.

La Pour Ça

2008-03-08T21:24:00.000-08:00

nada surf is one of those bands that i resisted for a while - for no reason, too. they aren't super popular or lame, and i would go so far as to say they are fairly unique.

i'm super pumped about okgo, and i will go. whenever a concert seems to come up, and i want to go really badly, the friend that agreed to go with me always backs out, so i end up not going, for fear of being lame and alone at a concert. i will go to okgo.

aero ports.

2008-03-02T13:58:00.000-08:00

funny how, when you least expect it, fate seems to run up and kick you in the face.

oh, toronto maple leafs, i miss your biggest fan.

2008-02-29T16:37:00.000-08:00

"lets go to the park, i want to kiss you underneath the stars."

john legend brings joy to my heart

i don't think this trip will beat garrafon but it will be wonderful.

so off to florida i go. with my mom.

see you in a week.

forward motion.

2008-02-26T18:47:00.000-08:00

don't even lie: relient k was so cool. is so cool?

the drummer is hot, too. they were sweet before they sold out. i forgive them, though.

either way, me and my roomie listened to lots and lots of relient k this evening. wondaful.

headaches and heartthrobs

2008-02-24T16:38:00.000-08:00

so i really like justin king.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k-pk4osQ5to&feature=related

you should probably watch that.

blogging?

2008-02-23T18:56:00.000-08:00

who knows how this will go.

its all a product of not wanting to read the communist manifesto (sorry professor).

jack came out with a new cd a bit ago, it's quite lovely. i'd love to park the van and walk to town, in case you're wondering.

i have lots to do,

but i think i'll just go listen to jack.