when i look at the stars.

i have come to realize over the last couple of weeks how incredibly boring my life currently is. and i have come to realize how unhappy i am, and self-conscious, and mean, and nit-picky, and girlly... so i am going to work on that.

i need it to be summer. i need a fresh start. i need to move out of this room, and out of this building, and off of this campus for a little while. go back to my roots, one might say. i need some intellegent conversation. i need to put away some old habits, old fellows, and even some new habits and new fellows, perhaps.

i still think ywam is for me. i still think its a good idea. i wish i still thought i was strong enough to do it.

i am currently: overcast with a chance of rain.